All doped up and nowhere to go

I am opposed to drugs.
I have valium, which I'm scared to ever use.
But let's be honest.. anxiety sucks balls.
& lately it's been playing up more than I would like to admit.
(A lot)
I'm sick of being held back from doing things I want to do.
I'm sick of being unhappy.
I should drink less.
But I'm scared to branch out and do something else.
This is the plan as the happier and less honest entry below this says.
I don't know what to do except opt for some random internet promoted thing.
Even if it's a placebo effect that it gives me, I am willing to pay for it.
This is what the site had to say about me when I finished the online test.

Apt.

I need less assholes in my life and more hobbies.
My SLR was so expensive and I've hardly even used it even though it's only what 2? days old.
Jesus.
All I want to do is sleep.
But all I have are nightmares.
I also lack the space to do so... how unnerving.

I want to be me again.
Whoever this whingy faggot is smells funny.

I also went blonde yesterday.
Notsureifwant.
It looks a lot better than I thought it would, so that's pretty ace.
Life is... lifey.