MFW

People ask me what I want to make me happy.

Hobbies and interests fade into the background as we become old and consumed by our own selfish lives. Oh yawnity yawn yawn. This is true, but who are the cool people that we want to be when we age? We want to be the ones who hang onto our youth, our hobbies, our interests.

We want to be people who care more about something, a passion, than some lame ass politics and paying the bills. How do people lose these things that make them young and happy? They get lazy. Laziness will be our downfall. Obesity is a problem because people could not be assed to do anything.

Eat what you want.
DO you what want.

But do SOMETHING, I know this, because I have been devoid of much to my life other than drinking and causing trouble for myself. Yes, this is a confession of sorts. I realised I may go out and drink more often than your average person.

Do I blame Australian culture?
Student culture?
OUR youth of today?
Fuuuck that.

I blame fear and laziness because I'm not going out there and doing something that makes me truly happy.

I want to learn parkour.
I want to get back into photography; and I took the first step today, I bought an SLR (with the money that I'm supposed to be spending on uni-related things) but hey, I bought my text books (all two of them) and I'm good to go!

I want to learn to draw cartoons.
Batman is amazing and I'd love to be able to create something like that!

I want to finish one of my stories. Create a new one? After finishing ONE!
Just one.
For once.

I can't access my computer to re-read the story The Pros and Cons of Killing Yourself that I had started to write and was quite enjoying due to my extremely depressing living arrangements. This is to say, I am living in a garage at my brother's house with my mother and a house full of belongings... all in this garage.

I am cramped to the extreme and pushed to feel bizarre, terrible things.
Like not awesome.
Quite... the opposite.

Due to recent developments with close friends being assholes, my destructive response to this, and terrible timing, I have been doing what I can to avoid being in that place despite a dwindling number of people I feel I can turn to. At this stage I am very appreciative of people who check up on me, ask if I'm okay, and those who are keeping me from sobbing quietly in the corner of a garage or running away and doing something stupid like drugs.

Yes, I'm opposed to drugs.
Yes, I drink too much.
Hypocrite?
Bite me.

I am excited for things to change, and knowing that it'll be two weeks until my mother and I are able to move into the new place and have some space again I'm both unbelievably tense and relieved.

The roller coaster continued today as my camera made me very excited, but my over all displeased look at how things are made it not the unbelievable experience it should have been. (Such as when I found out that I'm getting a signed photo of Adam West as blue batman).

Feeling so down the last thing you want to do is receive a message from a good friend. One of your best friends. Especially in a time when you feel like everyone around you either wants sex or someone to be around whilst they drown out their sorrows with alcohol... You don't want someone to message you saying they can't see you so much anymore.

It's too hard because they care too much and it's painful to watch.
Fucking feelings.
He likes her and she likes him and he likes ducks.
Nobody seems to 'win' with these things.

I have now seen The Dark Knight Rises twice.
It's amazing.

Some days you just don't know how to finish a blog;

I've got the moves like jagger

Not really LULZ...

My costume turned out okay, so that made me happy. It was an awesome night and a lot of silly people seemed to think I dressed like that normally, slash they had no idea who I was. What has the world come to!!

So, I've known for a long time now that I have never and never will be cool.
After you accept this it makes life a lot easier.
My friends and I seemed to be the only ones who dressed up at this event other than the actual staff.

Bitches be jelly, yo.

In other news, I have become obsessed with the song 'Runaway' by Kanye West.
It's an awesome song, but also I've become quite fed up with how much emotional bullshit I put up with because I put effort in with all the wrong people.

How does one go about fixing this?

WELLITY!
I think for starters I need to make a serious effort to become closer with people from uni, which is to say, branch the fuck out.

I have a confession to make too...
I was more excited than a young adult should be to be buying my text books.
Something about learning and being productive again has made me feel less awful about the events as of late (realisation of troublesome people in my life).

But we'll see how this goes in the next couple of days, it's been one hell of a roller coaster.

OH! and I must mention that if you want to let someone know you're annoyed/piss them off please do not let them know in such a way that makes their evening by how stupid you do it.

Last night I was having dinner with some people, and I wandered off for a moment and saw a frenemy from college (senior years of high school for you amerifags) I wasn't sure where we stood at the time (I may or may not have posted this conversation on 9fag:

Btw, I have accepted that this will not ever be 'trending', (just like everything I do, amirite?) but if you laughed then give me a smiley or whatever. 
http://9gag.com/gag/4062155

ANYYYYWAY, I saw her and was like "Hey dude, what's up?"
"Ugh, hi..."
"Hm, we not talking?"
"No?"
"Alright, see ya!"

Awkward interactions FTW.
Oh golly I laughed.


Until next time, friends!
KEEP SMILING!

To the bat mobile!

USHERRR!

But seriously, Friday night a club is having a Gotham themed night and I am a little bit excited, I love batman just a little bit.
Since the 2005 'Batman Begins', I have been a massive fan, then when I played the game Arkham Asylum I fell even more in love and became a bit of a fangirl for Harley Quinn...

Now Arkham City isn't as good as Arkham Asylum, you must know this.
But it is still an awesome, fun game, with everyone's favourite psycho couple; Joker & Harley!

Fast forward to the present day and I'm waiting patiently for my Harley Quinn costume to arrive in the mail! It most closely resembles her Arkham City outfit, and I'll see what I can do to make it as close as possible but I'm working with this:

I'll need to add a black choker and do my hair in piggy tails with black and red hair spray, but I suppose it'll be all part of the experience having to add bits and pieces. I also know the costume wont be overly accurate, but it'll be fun and awesome and I'm pretty sure it's recognisable. We'll see.

But really, I dunno how it'll turn out.

Awake at 5am!?

For the second day in a row!
I have been awake until this time.
NOT OKAY.

Uni starts back in 2 weeks and I don't know how to adjust to the real world.
I also found out today that I have no lectures on Monday or Friday.
Four day weekend!
Shit's so cash.

This will lead me to having to get an actual job.
Because even I cannot spend all that time on the internet and sleeping. (Because let's be honest that takes up a lot of my current lifestyle.)

I have started thinking about my next tattoo, which I hope I wont get for another year and a half, but I'm getting super keen on them.
Doesn't help I've been looking at suicide girls, tumblrs featuring tattooed girls.... All because I didn't want to go to an ATM to get money out because then I'd have $20 on me, and ended up spending extra money on a magazine to do so.

THIS magazine:

Which makes me think:
Eew, gross. Why do fat chicks get tattoos in areas where you need to be skinny?
It's not okay for anyone involved.

Also /b/ (4chan) had a terrible thread of tattoos. It really makes you think how some people even MADE it to the age when they were legally allowed to get a tattoo if they are stupid enough to pay for and have on them permanently some of the designs I've seen.

Chasers also did a segmant on tattoos a while ago before their new show.. hamster on a wheel? or whatever it's called came out. One of them went around issuing fake fines for stupid tattoos, which of course most of the people responded to rather harshly. But you have to wonder. Who are your friends if not to call on you when you do something dumb? So honestly. He shouldn't have been the first person to let these people know. If he was, they need to get better friends.

Oh wait. They probably deserve each other. They can all be put on a special island where they can look like idiots and discuss 'the game'. Far away from me where I can get drunk and tell people my opinions on the world. Ah yes, life on my high horse IS good. Thankyou for asking.

Thankyou and good night (morning?).

I'm a writer. Yeah? No shit.

You don't say.
There are a great many things that are obvious to me. That don't seem to be obvious to other people. I'm not saying I have greater insight than all other human beings. That would just sound arrogant, which is of course not my intent at all. Oh my no. But some people just don't learn how to behave like normal human beings. This rustles my jimmies. I watch high school movies and see the 'loser' kid struggling and saying stupid things and I just think. Wow, how did you think that was okay? I have people in my life who have graduated from high school, people who are older than me and social norms seem to be completly beyond them.

This movie:

 

Which I re-watched last night after a few years, because a friend came over and was excited to see it. I didn't remember I'd seen it before until the premis of the story was revealed. Oh, I see, it's a kid struggling to be cool. Oh, it's a good boy being exploited by the cool/attractive kids and being turned into one of them? HOW ORIGINAL! Truth be told, considering that it's almost a unique take on this I'm not going to completly 'trash talk' the movie. (I'll be honest, as lame as that phrase is, it's fun to say.) It's a decent movie, but not worth watching unless you're really into the sort of drug, drama kind of dealio.

I digress. This kid really didn't see what was going on? I mean, I just don't understand why there are so many teenagers pining to be with the 'cool kids'. So many movies and TV shows about it. I used to loveee Christopher Pike's teenage novels when I was in high school, but I tried reading one now and the stereotypes that were so obvious just made me feel like I was being patronised. 

Yes, yes. Interests and such change (I'm only just getting back into writing, anime and hopefuly soon photography, although the flash on my camera is broken). But I don't understand how all these people really don't know how to be cool. How they never understand how to get an 'in'. Sure, genetics do come into it, but you know what? Be funny! Be nice!

I'm Australian and I loved anime, cosplay and video games during high school. Nontheless I got on with the vast majority of people. I did 'normal' things too like you know. Parties and what have you. But really, I just don't understand why people think it has to be one or the other. Learn how to join society! There are certain actions you don't do, certain things you don't say. Is it really that hard to figure it out that there are so many movies and series about the neglect and unobtainable friends?

I will spell it out to you, dear reader.

Be funny, be confident. Don't make a dick of yourself and brush your hair once in a while.